forever yours♥

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Sun, 19 May 2013 16:32:03 -0400

last night♥

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Thu, 16 May 2013 12:56:51 -0400

this would be nice right now♥

Wed, 15 May 2013 10:28:55 -0400

this would be nice right now♥

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Tue, 14 May 2013 13:31:50 -0400

mommy &baby girl cuddle time :)

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mommy &baby girl cuddle time :)

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Mon, 13 May 2013 21:10:11 -0400

Jeremy,

Mon, 13 May 2013 21:08:00 -0400

I was very harsh when we split. &i confused you as much as you confused me. But today, when I showed up on your doorsteps, and you asked why I wouldn’t just go home, and I tried to explain I’d been kicked out until further notice and I broke down, you pulled me inside your home. I tried to stop and leave, and the way you pulled me into your chest, the way you held me up as my legs shook… I knew you still cared. In that moment, as I shattered in front of you, I decided friends or lovers, I wanted you around and I wasn’t going to fuck up keeping you. When I grabbed my keys and said I’d go to the car, you said, “Where are you going to go? Why don’t you sit down or lay down until I have to pick up Jose?” I never expected that. Never. I picked up my phone and the card from the vet, and as I turned to leave, you grabbed me and kissed me. You’d never kissed me like that before. You kissed me like I was heroin, touching your lips— Like without taste you’d lose your mind. You kissed me and when I said, “We shouldn’t do this. I need to go, so you don’t pity me.” You turned my head to face you, and you looked me in the eye and said, “I want you back. I’m not saying that out of pity for you, Andrea. I love you.”

So while no one knows yet, we are together. I still can’t believe it. I thought we’d finally hit the end of the road for us, but when it came down to is, we were clearly still in love and we both clearly wanted to make this work. I couldn’t ask for better, even through our mistakes. I’ve never had anyone want me so much. I don’t know what I did to deserve a man to love me eternally— Unconditionally. But what I do know is that I will do everything in my power to make you happy and make us work, because I love you and I want you, only you, all of you, forever.

Although it hasn’t sunk in yet, welcome home, honey bee. I missed you♥

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Mon, 13 May 2013 20:51:11 -0400

Don’t speak as I try to leave, because we both know what we’ll...

Mon, 13 May 2013 20:50:53 -0400

Don’t speak as I try to leave, because we both know what we’ll choose. If you pull then I’ll push too deep, and I’ll fall right back to you♥

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Mon, 13 May 2013 20:40:43 -0400

Jeremy,

Sat, 11 May 2013 13:51:00 -0400

I expected more. I expected you to try for me. To fight. To be sweet. I thought you’d re-alter your schedule, knowing you hurt me by blowing me off. I thought when you said you were finally scared you’d lose me, that you would have begged me to stay. I guess I expected too much. When you proposed, I thought you meant it— That you, and no one else could love me as much. I was wrong. How did you sleep last night, knowing we were over? Without saying goodnight? Without me telling you I loved you? How did you wake up and shower, and leave for school without telling me you were headed to the bus and that you’d miss me? How am I more broken up inside than you are? How come I always cared more— Loved more? I guess I should’ve seen it coming… You broke my heart over a year ago… I just hoped the day I had enough, you would’ve held on tight… Made me feel “irreplaceable “, make me feel like you’d “be nothing” without me. But you never were really good with honesty, and I guess all those sweet things were just more lies.

Goodbye, Jeremy. Thank you for 2 years together, and making me believe wishes CAN come true, and that maybe, someday, Gabbi and I will both be loved enough for me to be married. I always loved you through everything… I wish you’d have shown you felt the same…

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